May 12,2011

This morning at 4:35 am I lost my best-friend, my soulmate my lover. God has taken him. Taken him away from all his pain and suffering, in his sleep as I for prayed for, with me by his side. Thank you Jesus....Thank you Jesus. Stevens night started out rested as I laid beside him,resting my head on his right shoulder and my arm across his chest at midnight. He remains in oxygen with continued shallow breathing. He has been slipping in and out of consciousness with only a few spoken words that are exhausting to him with every breath he takes. I lay here scared and frightened with my eyes closed but not in a deep sleep. I awaken with ever bit of noise my ears hear. As the hours pass by, I can see and hear Stevens respirations slowing down and his body becoming colder as I lay here touching him. He has removed all the bed linen that covered him and assured me he was ok and not cold. I thought to myself " is he thinking that the weight of the sheets will stop him from rising up to heaven ? " I wonder ! It's now 4 am and I'm hearing nothing but slow breathing. I knew it was time and started to weep silently. Then Steven startled me by talking and moving. I suddenly uplifted myself in bed and looked over to him as he laid on his back mumbling words while rising both arms up into the air calling out in works of tongue. I asked him "Steven, are you ok ? What's wrong ?" Steven replied in a low raspy tone "God" so softly that I had to ask again " what's wrong Steven ?" I proceeded to go sit beside him and proceeded to ask him again...”Steven, whats wrong ?” and that's when he said to me " God, God, don't you see him ?" he then pulled me into him with both his arms with all the strength that he had left and whispered in my left ear...."God" As I looked into his glossy eyes, I in turn said "God ! Steven, you see God?" Steven then replied "Yes, God" it was at that moment that I knew it was time to say my last goodbye. “Steven, you see God, go with him, go Steven, he's waiting for you, I will be ok, go with him to heaven where there's no more pain, no more suffering, go Steven.” Stevens respirations ceased within minutes. Thank you Lord for taking him in a peaceful way. Thank you for taking him with you. Thank you for all the love you have shown us all through or toughest of times....Thank You Jesus !! <3